face the music

felt so giddy after school today. i didn't know whats the cause of it though, and because of this i had a hell of a time going back home after school, bumpy ride made it even worse.
so recently i received an email saying i was debarred from maths common test. i was pissed off because i didn't think my attendance record was bad, nevertheless there were some classmates along with me who got it too.

already send my appeal form to the teacher or director, and i really pray it works. and the ones who got debarred along with me all lived at the north-east or east side. so isnt it obvious why we were always late, even for other lessons? having said that, im sick of facing this kind of judgement ever since the attachment incident a year ago, certainly i hope this is the last.

oh yeah, happy birthday to my father on the 1st of Dec.
a year past by so fast this time, maybe there's so many things that happen drastically to everyone here, including one which was a shocker, though i won't elaborate much on this here.. but things has changed. hopefully for the better.

@$%^#$%*#%^*(

I GOT FREAKING DEBARRED FROM BLOODY MATHS.
NO WARNING LETTERS OR WHATSOEVER
AND I ONLY MISSED 3 TIMES FOR FREAKING SAKE.

I'M DARN PISSED RIGHT NOW BLOODY SCHOOL. WHAT THE HELL DO YOU HAVE AGAINST ME FOR GOODNESS SAKE.

Broke, once again.

Self - portrait, collaged.

finally, after 6 weeks Art & Design class is over.

really glad to finally hand in the journal and research to lecturer this afternoon, workload is decreased.. for now. whatever it is, i'm glad about all my artwork so far, feels great knowing some work is paid off.

but that doesn't mean everything's over and done.

another IS module starts on 7 dec, and its Drama & Poetry. great, drama or acting and me don't fit at all, thanks to me thinking that i only have to choose one module.

I'm way behind time for maths. and i don't understand why do we have to take maths, no relation whatsoever to the course, and besides this is the final maths im going to take for this 3 years. so whats the point of doing when you're gonna just stop halfway in year 2 and not advance in maths at all? nevermind, its not about hating maths, its about the time consumed doing maths.

on the other note, finally got my hands on Assassin Creed 2. freaking awesomee, those who have played assassin creed 1 would definitely love this sequel. it seems like even more of a new game compared to its predecessor. i thought of wanting to purchase the collector's edition, but it was sold out, 1 day after its release. damn, i wanted the Ezio figurine >:(

i really wished time would past by fast, so during the term break, i would stay up all day night long to play this game.

and im broke once again. in 1 and a half weeks, ive bought two games which caused nearly 170 dollars. and thats considered alot of money. i've got 14 games currently so approximately i used up around 1k dollars just for games. even though i starved and saved all my allowance money to buy the games, this is one hell of a bad habit, but.. heh.

Pledge.

20 days, I pledged.

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Gaming geek.

bought Dragon Age : Origins Collector's Edition recently. the hype and news revolving around the game is huge. read forums and seen playthroughs satisfied my urge to buy this game.

this edition goes along with a free shirt and an actual map of the world inside.

BUT, there's been one issue that has been disturbing me now, the freaking framerate.

i can't believe this kind of game has framerate issues which utterly made me so annoyed everytime i played it, its like you're playing a game on a lag computer only that the image is stuttering, but everywhere else stays clean. there's been complaints all around the world about this framerate issues but it seems not all were affected, nonetheless, im trying my very best to make this game worth it.

i get a feeling that im becoming more of a hardcore gamer nowadays, a gaming geek who has no life playing games all day long. lol, seems harsh but what else to do other than games and music.

whatever it is, i wonder when will be the time when i actually do something meaningful for myself and others. been a long time it is.

family is going genting highlands from 11 - 13 december. my mother as usual asked me and my friends along too BUT, its common test week. i swear its been really a long time since i actually went out holidays with family. dreaded the fact now but no choice, i just cant skip out exams.

what kind of life am i living in now, lol.

One by one we fit and then we fall.

Days been too hectic and tiring. last weekend had my cousin's wedding taking place at yishun. naturally i have to help out, and i asked ruzaini and haiqel along since my mother asked for help.
sorry i couldn't ask alot more due to early confirmations and supplies.
yeah, a great time was spent with family and friends. especially at some times where we had to hold back the groom, something traditonal. i swear i was making a fool of myself, but its fun. other than the tiresome workload, ill wish all the best for my cousin's marriage. 

School has been tiring as always. mainly not because of the timetable, its because of the traveling journey. the bus i took from school back to home broke down for 2 days straight and im honestly pissed with the transport. its so dreadful to go back home from school, thanks to peak hours.

rantings aside, life been pretty much mundane. im beginning to hate the fact that when i always reached home, im all tired, and result in wasting time sleeping.

congregation of the damned.

this week been too unlucky for me, especially the first few days.
officially from monday onwards, i have no cca at all. kicked out, removed or whatever its called, i don't want to brag on about it, all i could say in the end was, its not enough at all. and this happened right after the day when man utd lost to liverpool, which adds more disappointment.

frequent stomachaches has been happening at the most crucial times adding more bad luck. rather than calling this whole week an unlucky one, its more like this unlucky stuffs had been going on, right after the another. weird.

nevertheless, on the tiny brighter side, i have much more time in my hands thanks to the unbalanced timetable of this semester. missed soccer session with friends yesterday, due to body clock screw ups. but went out to town with them window-shopping. really itching to buy the lcd tv for my own purpose, but of course budget will never be enough. yesterday night stayed over at ruzaini's house watching soccer. every game is even more exciting due to red cards and the great goals. other than that, zaini slept and left me alone for freaking 4 hours doing nothing.

and i did mentioned that my parents want to move to a new house. and im the only one fully against it.
reason being is of course i loved this house we're living in and it feels weird if i were to go back from school or anywhere to another house other than this. whatever it is, i hope the decision made will be a wise one.

atreyu's new album, congregation of the damned kicks ass. their best album so far. wanted to buy their album but, i think ill do it another way -.-
other than that, enjoy my pictures of my very own art, lol

this is the wire sculpture which i've been busy and having alot of trouble with. i call this

the super ninja! lol

this is my own hand being casted with plasters. a rough hand which shows hardwork >:)

First Week.

School had been tiring the first three days, mainly due to soccer after schools
and.. some trouble sleeping in. on thursday was more of a slack day, class started at 4 and it only last for 30 mins.
my traveling time is indeed more than the class's period. thank goodness there's no soccer last friday, some rest and time to do homework and.. art.

went to plaza singapura yesterday and it was hell crowded there. there seems to be some kind of event going on but the announcer said its canceled, and it causes even more havoc. escalators jamming up, its even hard to walk through anywhere. but luckily it only happens for the basements level and first floor.
had to go to spotlight to search for wires, surprisingly there's none. headed over to bras basah shortly after that to search in art friend and there it was.

i had to do this wire sculpture of a superhero, which at first thought it might be easy but it gets harder to form the shape. my figure seems abit weird in some way. gotta work on it the whole day.

liverpool v man utd match tonight. really looking forward to this match. other than that, i've been having alot of dreams which kept repeating itself. wonder whats the sign.